It’s November. Winter is well and truly coming. The weather has suddenly turned and it’s no freezing all the time, and the clocks went back last weekend which means it is now super dark super early. I don’t want to become an old person and talk about the short days, but the lack of light at night sucks.
I’m avoiding the main issue here. Guys, I’ve had a bad week. A really terrible, bad, horrendous week. I have fallen off the wagon and I am struggling to get back on. I am disappointed and angry at myself, and most importantly, I am gutted that this major setback in mindset is probably going to have a detrimental effect on my progress. Grrrrr.
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I am really really struggling this week. It actually started last week, on Friday, when I took my Gran out for Afternoon Tea and bought some food from Marks and Spencer. I treated Emma and I to the ‘Dine in for £10’ deal they do and made a roast chicken and roasted vegetables kind of deal. You get a dessert with it, so I got an apple pie, and boom, we had that on Sunday. OK, so one dessert doesn’t matter, but it went down hill from there. I had pizza on Wednesday night before the football. Yesterday, I just felt that rubbish, tired, and annoyed that I went to McDonalds. As annoyed as I am with myself, this seems to have been the moment where I looked at myself with that feeling you get when your parents say ‘I’m not angry, I’m just disappointed’.
I know that realistically blips are going to happen, and actually getting to week 5 before it happened is quite good. The fact is that this has really knocked me for 6. It’s shaken my belief that I can stay ‘on the wagon’ and has really made me think that my diet and fitness routine is very precarious. I am going to try hard to save it over the next week or so, but then I hit my birthday and I’m faced with a dilemma of what to do for it and whether I can now really have a treat day, because I clearly didn’t bounce back as well as I hoped this week.
In terms of fitness, and fitness routines, this week has been a little better. I have been to Zumba twice, only cancelled spinning once, and the only reason I haven’t gone to the gym today is that I am not feeling too well. Maybe this also contributed to my downfall yesterday, but I have been feeling a bit flu-ey and bleurgh for the past 48hrs. My voice goes in and out of being a little croaky, and I just generally don’t feel top notch.
Birthday and Christmas preparations are kicking in properly now. I am pretty sure that I have sorted my presents for everyone except my brothers. I have created an extensive wishlist of things I want, and have dispatched my parents to Disney with a list too. I ma getting a little apprehensive at the thought of the food that comes with birthday, and Christmas Markets, and the festive period in general. I found it easier when I was employing the everything is banned mindset from the beginning of this journey. Perhaps I need to get back there again?
WEIGHT: This week: 0lb Total: -13lb
EXERCISE: 2x Zumba
MOOD: Disappointed with myself
RECIPE/FOOD/SNACK of the week: Oven Roasted Vegetables
HINTS/TIPS of the week: It’s easier to say no to everything than have a little bit of something.
I knew I was going to have hard weeks, where my motivation was low and the demons were high, and it sucks, but I’m hoping to get right back on it leading up to my 26th birthday.
See you next week!